Memories

Memories like daggers kneel deeply in my heart
wounding my spirit afresh everytime they come aloft on the surface of my mind...memories of age so young and innocent
of a heart open and loving, full of light from within,
alone against the whole world

the never ending episodes of pain, ridicule & shame
instilled hurt day by day into this heart like a slow poison
crippling my life forever

words that'd scare like knives edges
running on the body,drawing blood
breaking my heart into many pieces,
setting it forever in motion
to recover from one debacle after another
keeping my life a futile exercise
of trying to put the pieces back together,
to make the heart come whole again.

the stares of boys and girls, the glint in their eyes
and ugly maddening grins on their faces -
like that of a madman who has found a key to set the
beast free from its cage...
sniffing my vulnerability like a scent of a prey
with their power over me they crush me to pieces again 
& again with their fists, taunts, mocking smiles
and the hushed silences of the teachers
who let it all be continued day in day out,
as if they are in agreement of this penace
the tongues wagging like snakes tail,
lashing its catch, gobbling its head

memories in hoarse voices of the old man
and the imprint of the rope tied to my hands -
the stronghold of a man's hand over two small hands
& the glint in the old green eyes,
like the cold freezing stare of a snake
paralyzing its catch with the infallible attack.

the stinking memories keep on lingering in the air
polluting my consciousness,pouring dirty water all over me
as I plead and plead before God for mercy
to unchain myself from the clutch...

the bit by bit defeat of a human soul and its dignity
turning of life into a sad spectacle before the Gods,
Angels & this Whole World...
who I imagine are roaring with laughter at my plight